Well im such a girl.....
Today something happened thats has never ever ever happened EVER. No matter what ive been given...Ive never reacted the way i did today....
See...I had a shitty day....works is hectic and my impending leaving is making it harder to deal with every day shit. Anyway, last night Abhi spent the night...I went to his cricket match and then hanged out with his friends afterwards. Sometime during the cricket match I ended up checking his phone...i dont know why. In any case I saw a text by a girl i think he mentioned before, Stella, saying "Im giving up".
Long story short I made all kinds of gory movies in my head. I didnt say anything since it wasnt a hideous thing...but it made me wonder. In the end I decided if im going to be with the man...I gotta trust him.
Anyway still today it kinda was swiming in my head but again i decided to really see how he was behaving and if i had any reason to doubt him.
No...none whatsoever...NONE
So anyway I continued with my stressful, Im-gonna-throw-the-phone-against-the-wall day. I had to run to the post office before it closed, and then realized one of the labels was wrong so I had to fix it...AHHHHH madness..
In any case I got home, tired stressed and cranky. I opened the door, my bed all made up, my room cleaned up. And on top of my bed, made with all kinds of plastics, papers, remote, lotions pens..a sign saying " KISS "
At first I awwwed..then I laugh but then I started tearing up and ended up crying....
I dont know why...but I couldnt help myself. I imagined him going thru my room getting random things everywhere to make the sign...just because.
I dont know why it got me the way it did. Maybe because of my fear that he may mess up again, maybe because I doubted him yesterday... I dont know...but it got me.
I sent him a text thanking him for it..he put a smile and a kiss....
Ive never been the type to tear up at mooshy things....